HELLO WORLD my name is caroline and i just got my wisdom teeth out and i’m bored out of my mind so i decided to post on tumblr because i haven’t posted anything in like twenty years. kaybye.
i thank You God for most this amazing
day:for the leaping greenly spirits of trees
and a blue true dream of sky; and for everything
which is natural which is infinite which is yes
(i who have died am alive again today,
and this is the sun’s birthday; this is the birth
day of life and of love and wings: and of the gay
great happening illimitably earth)
how should tasting touching hearing seeing
breathing any—lifted from the no
of all nothing—human merely being
doubt unimaginable You?
(now the ears of my ears awake and
now the eyes of my eyes are opened)
real talk.
you can’t be happy all the time. you can put on a happy face, but being genuinely joyful for the entirety of your life is almost impossible.
it’s my goal, though.
but sometimes things just bring you down, ya know? wow, if there ever was something to bring me down, it happened today. i feel a little hurt, a little broken, and a lot discouraged. i know i’m not really very vocal about the points in my life when i feel like this. i try to keep it all bottled up. i never even talk about it with my own family.
yes sometimes i just need to let it out. i’ve lost a lot of hope today, and realized that my hope has been placed in the wrong things.
yes, i’m down. but i’ll come back. i’ll find more solid ground to place my hopes and foundations in. i’ll get it all figured out.
as americans, we are entitled to the pursuit of happiness. we can chase after a dream, and chase after joy. i love that. and i’m going to focus my eyes not on what’s weighing me down and making me feel only a little more than unlovable. i’m going to focus them on joy. if i don’t have it now, it’ll come. if i keep my eyes on Jesus, it’ll come.
i’ll hang in there.
how can i stand here with You and not be moved by You?
You’re all i want.
You’re all i need.
You’re everything.
everything.
never forget that
you are loved more than you will ever know, by someone who died to know you.
Romans 5:8.
venture out.
Disturb us, Lord, when
We are too well pleased with ourselves,
When our dreams have come true
Because we have dreamed too little,
When we arrived safely
Because we sailed too close to the shore.
Disturb us, Lord, when
With the abundance of things we possess
We have lost our thirst
For the waters of life;
Having fallen in love with life,
We have ceased to dream of eternity
And in our efforts to build a new earth,
We have allowed our vision
Of the new Heaven to dim.
Disturb us, Lord, to dare more boldly,
To venture on wider seas
Where storms will show your mastery;
Where losing sight of land,
We shall find the stars.
We ask You to push back
The horizons of our hopes;
And to push into the future
In strength, courage, hope, and love.
-Sir Francis Drake
this song is perfect. i couldn’t have asked for a better answer to times when nothing seems hopeful.
When the pieces seem to shatter,
To gather off the floor.
And all that seems to matter
Is I can’t feel You anymore.
No I can’t feel You anymore.
I need a reason to sing.
I need to know that You’re still holding
The whole world in Your hands.
I need a reason to sing.
When I’m overcome by fear,
And I hate everything I know.
If this waiting lasts forever,
I’m afraid I might let go.
I need a reason to sing
I need to know that You’re still holding
The whole world in Your hands
I need a reason to sing
Will there be a victory?
Will You sing it over me now?
Your peace is the melody,
You sing it over me now.
I need a reason to sing
I need to know that You’re still holding
The whole world in Your hands.
That is a reason to sing
